Socialization

"I'm an animal.  You're an animal too." Neko Case


Socialization

Compartmentalize

Prioritize

Never look them in the eyes

Hold it in

Never sin

Never smell

It's hard to tell

Where you end

And I begin

Wrapped up in a cotton cage

Catalogs and anti-age

Carbon copies

Crowded lobbies

Cold hard cash

Caffeine crash

Make the man

Take command

The boots

The suits

The ties

The lies

Get in it 

To win it

Get out when you die

Change with the Seasons

This poem is dedicated to the San Marcos River in San Marcos, Texas.  I miss it.


Change with the Seasons

Out comes the sun

To smile on the flesh

Of all of these kids

Half grown and half fresh

Lie on the grass

Glide on the water

Try hard to forget

The words of your fathers

Take your time in this world

It's one of a kind

When you leave this place

You leave it behind

Down falls the rain

All over the faces

Wrinkled and stained

By faraway places

Think back to the days

The world really shined

All that you wanted

Was all you could find

Change with the seasons

Save your resistance

Take pleasure in knowing

Your place in existence

I Didn't Mean It

Another super cheery poem about love!!!  I'll put something happyish soon.  Maybe.  But probably not.

I Didn't Mean It

My knuckles turn white

When I think of you

It hurts to laugh

If one gets through

If I ever thought you should die

I really didn't mean it at all

My words fall flat

When I talk to you

You like to abuse 

My point of view

If I ever told you a lie

I probably didn't mean it at all

The monkey can see

The monkey won't do

Somehow your words

Are ringing true

If I ever ignored you

I didn't want to hurt you at all

Doubled sided coin

Doubled edged sword

Any way you describe it

Love is the word

Two Worlds

"Everybody's workin' for the weekend... Everybody's goin' off the deep end." Loverboy

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The urgency of afternoon

Sabotage me of my time

Hurry 'fore the lights go down

My fleeting peace of mind

Everyone against the bar

Grackles on thin power lines

Sip it up but do not drown

The little light inside

You're dreaming of an ancient place

You've visited before

Lucid winds whip across

The windows and the doors

The lonely wolf howls a tune

Slows the beating of your heart

Frozen here between two worlds

A child of the dark

The Starry Eyed Rat

Here's a sing-songy piece.  One of these days I'm gonna learn guitar!

The Starry Eyed Rat

Didn't smile at all today

The crescent moon was on its side

So I took a hint

And cracked a slant

But it never justified

I hid behind the dumpsters

And took the mailman on a ride

I said where's my mail

You son-of-a-gun

'Cause my mama didn't write

Fell right down that hole I dug

Like a chocolate water slide

Hit the wall

And hit rock bottom

Wound up covered up in pride

I came to in an alley

Not a soul was at my side

Except a rat

With starry eyes

"In me you must confide."

Spilled my guts to that stinker

And we rode in the tide

Looked around

And realized

I came through the other side

First Post: Introduction

I started this blog to share some of my poetry and other forms of writing.  People write for all different reasons but I mostly write for catharsis.  I tend to write in flashes, writing a slew of poems in just a few days, then perhaps nothing for a while.  I don't fuss over my writing much.  I just let it out, then I'm done.

Often I want to share my poems but I hesitate for one reason or another.  Obviously, poetry is personal.  It's like revealing a part of yourself that you may not even fully understand.  Also, in social situations we are mostly taught to "keep the conversation light" and not to be a "Debbie Downer" but the fact is, a lot of poetry is dark.  It comes from the subconscious and, as you probably know, it's not always unicorns and rainbows in there.  So I'm opening up the "caves of the things that have not happened yet" and letting it all out. (Any Neko Case fans out there?)

If you know me, you know me.  I'm female. I'm 26. I'm an Aries. I'm a cat person. I live in Austin, Texas.

Here's the first poem:

I See

The whole world, stop and listen

I can't keep pretending

(I'm ok)

With my eyes wide open

Through midnight dreams I see

The world that I envision

Doesn't look like heaven

But don't it look

Much better than this scene

I'm torn in two divisions

Two otherworld dimensions

Interwoven things

That I have never seen

Spinning in the tension

Still scenes of my religion

So pure and good

But lost on the human sea